Here I Am, Depressed on Christmas

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It’s Christmas Day. I sit in the basement with my family upstairs, happily enjoying a Christmas movie and preparing dinner. Inside me rages a storm of utter hopelessness.

This year has been a hell of a ride, but this kind of thing is pretty par for the course for me. I consistently feel a deep emptiness around big events. My anxiety worsens. I feel like I’ve been walking with my fist clenched tightly…